A Baby Came... And Everything Changed!

MERRY CHRISTMAS!!!


So I haven't quite made my one post a week goal!! The Holidays are easy to get lost in! A lot has happened since last post so I'll try to update as much as I can remember!


First and fore most I did THE DEED. Yes, I did it. When they did the invitation at church I raised my hand, said the prayer and did the walk where everyone can see that you just officially gave you heart to God. I've been so back and fourth for SO long about doing this. But like someone said, there's nothing wrong with being SURE! I mean I have always believed in God. I was saved when I was 13. Never Baptized (I need to find a home church and get on that), but let's face it. A LOT has happened since I was 13. I have always professed to be saved. But ya know when its been a while and they're doing the invite I always felt ify. I always tell myself 'I'm already saved', or 'its between me and God so walking up and showing it to everyone isn't THAT big of a deal,' (because lets face it, I am a shy kinda person), but since I had to convince myself NOT to do it was all the more reason TO do it. And I'm SO glad that I did. But just be forewarned, when they act like SO many people raised their hands (ya know everyone eyes are supposed to be closed and heads are supposed to down) there AREN'T THAT many lol. I was the only one that took the walk! Kinda made me laugh. But I am GLAD that I did.


That same night at church during the service I could see between the curtains; like off to the side of the stage. It was the Christmas service so mostly music and one of the singers (Jon LLoyd to be exact -check him out-) was standing back there waiting for his turn to come on stage while another guy was singing. And back there all by himself he had his hand in the air and his eyes closed, praising God. There was something about that moment seeing him so deep praise, so deep in the song that he is back there with his hands up in the air all by his lonesome was so touching for me. I don't know, I guess you had to be there. It was like him and I had a moment and he knew nothing about it lol. I guess I always put the 'hand raising' something you do at church (I know, I know, you should worship EVERYDAY) but honestly, I think I've only seen it at church. And seeing him doing that back there by himself, made me want to work harder to get to a point so I can do that. It made me even MORE excited to say that prayer and walk up there. So Thank you Jon LLoyd.


Every Year for Christmas we get together with my Grandparents, Aunts, Uncle, and cousins and we always do a present exchange. This year they changed the swap a little bit, instead of drawing names just bring a present and we'd do a swap. Well it wasn't until THE DAY BEFORE that I was informed that we aren't doing a swap, and frankly, I was kinda upset. A) Because no one bothered to tell me B) Because I had already bought a gift and C) because that meant I wasn't getting anything Christmas eve. Well then I get a BIG OLE SLAP IN THE FACE -Yes, we all need one sometimes and this one was FOR SURE needed and I believe straight from the big man himself-. The night before Christmas Eve I wake up at one A.M. PUKING MY BRAINS OUT. Even better, my darling husband starts at it right after me. We felt HORRIBLE. Puked ALL night. Felt like crap, didn't sleep. Mema came and got Ethan when he woke up so hopefully he wouldn't get it. We got out of up like 2 times all day and that was to lay on the couch and then back to the bed. They were planning on having our Christmas dinner at 5. Well at 3 my fever was so bad my face felt sun burnt. I was almost in tears thinking about how one of the few times my entire family gets together every year I was in bed sick. I wasn't worried about missing the presents, or even the food for that matter, but I was worried about missing my FAMILY. And celebrating the birth of Jesus with them. Luckily, mom came home, gave me meds and that perked me up (not 100%) enough to go spend the rest of the evening with them. THANK GOD. Not just for healing me enough to go, but for showing me how to pay attention to what REALLY matters. Which I know that Christmas is more about family than anything else, but I got WAY more upset than I should have. So knowing it and FEELING it are two different things. 


And check out this Video -CLICK HERE- it makes me CRY.


Merry Christmas to all and to All a good night. I LOVE YOU GUYS!!

Quick Post!

It's late! I've had a long evening. Getting groceries at 8:00pm will wear someone out! But I'm winding down, nothing on T.V. I was getting ready to go to bed and read the Bible but I decied to make a post since I'm doing this!

Random Thought:

I don't want to just read the bible I want to STUDY it. I realized that I learned more in my 5 week Old Testament class about the Bible than I've ever learned about the Bible. We didn't just look at one verse, or one instance, we learned about how each story connected with the other, and so much more. But it was A LOT of work to do in 5 weeks, so I will admit that I did half-ass it. So I didn't learn nearly as much as I wish I did. Now I wish I wouldn't have sold the book. I need to find a new one! 

Someone reading this sent me the link to this blog -The Worst Missionary Ever- <-- Click there. And I must say it is pretty awesome. I hope I can get to that point! She obviously is very self aware and has found herself. I don't know, I just love it! She is a Christian who didn't change who she is. Now I know changes need to be made to really follow the right path, but she is still her. -Well I'm guessing, I didn't know her before. Haha. But just read! 

I think I'm going to do my reading tonight all snuggled up in bed. I'll share more on here when I can. Good night! Love you all!

Lets Get Started!

Well I know I said I was gonna get started tomorrow, but I decided there's no better time than the present right?

Well, I really don't know what direction to go with this. I figured I would just start my normal blogging routine and then if I feel I need to put something extra I will. So lets start out with.......

My Thoughts In General

I don't know where to begin. Its always hard for the first becuase I have SO many thoughts I want to get them all out, but don't wanna be overwhelming. Something that's been in my head latley is volunteering. Not just volunteering, but helping people who need it. The verse I read last night that said helping people is great, but do you give you BEST!? You may donate your old clothes but why not you favorite clothes? I know it sounds a little crazy, but I get it. I want to help, I do help, but I haven't been giving 100% like I need to. I put in a form to Volunteer at the partnership for children to help out there, filled out all the forms and everything and they never contacted me. I want to help people I want to volunteer but I have no idea where, or where to start. My biggest excuse is that I have to volunteer when I have someone to watch Ethan. -Yes, I said EXCUSE. But once again, I did not follow up. I need to find somewhere that I can REALLY help people.

Next....

Passage for the Day...
Exodus 20:1-17

I remember studying then when I was studying the Old Testament in class. Its like the 1st version of the 10 Commandments:

1) No Other Gods
2)Do not bow down to idols
3)Do Not use the name in vein
4)Observe the Sabbath
5) Respect father & Mother
6) No Murder
7) No Adultry
8) No Stealing
9) Do not falsely accuse
10) Do not desier another man's house, wifes, slaves, cattle, donkeys, or anything else that he owns.

The reason I say the first version is because while the people of Israel wait to go into Cannan this version gets broken and God (Yahweh) gives another version (pretty much the same) that we now use as "The" Ten Commandments.

My Thoughts On The Passage

I looove studying these. I try to go by this every day. We are all born sinners and even though we may think of these things or the things tempt us, we can be honoroable people by not giving in. I know thatn if I'm at a crossroads and I choose the right path I always feel so much better. I'm in no way saying I ALWAYS choose the right path, or that it is easy. But I try. I really do.

Random thought
If any of this seems silly to you please keep tagging along. It is CRAZY what God will show you when you open your eyes. I've always believed in him, I've always tried to be a good person. But once I put my heart into hearing his word, and studying it it was crazy how he would point me in directions. I'd ask a question and it woud be anwsered. I don't mean in like some mysterious way. Here's an example: I was reading a passage about other Gods (this was when I was still new at all this). And my question was about other religions, were they not real!? Then the answer would apper like on the radio, or in my next passage reading, or in my class. I think this particular one was answered in my class. But it was like a slap in the face it happened so bluntly. You expect all these signs and mystery but there was none of that. And it happened to me quite a few times. You just have to open you eyes, truly believe, and put you heart into it.

So if you're reading this you obviously believe. Be an ACTIVE believer. I've spent so long being a passive believer and I am much happer being active with it. I love learning and reading about God, I love seeing him anwser my questions and touch people. I love going to church and singing. When you put everything aside and but God first he will work things out for you, if you let him.

Why Hello There.

So not much to say right now. I just wanted to get started. For a while I was reading a Bible passage every day and then blogging about it. But I kept that blog private and put a lot of stuff on there I wouldn't want anyone else to see. I still read every night but I haven't blogged latley. I've been thinking that I'd make a new public one so that maybe someone can benefit from my thoughts, or my readings or anything I put really.

This blog is basically me trying to fufill God's plan for me. I don't necessilary think that the blog itself will fufill the plan, but I do think that putting my thoughts out on paper can point me in a direction, and hopefully you too!

I don't know how often I'll post, maybe every day, maybe once a week. But when I do post I'll be posting about the verse I read, thoughts I have about the verse, thoughts i've had latley.

So anyway, if you're reading I hope this can some way some how help you. I'll get started probably tomorrow. So thanks for taggin along :-).